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My Blue cup and Journal
"From the absolute solitude,
There connected an umbilical cord to the higher power."
The Only Truth I can say at least with confidence is that
I am on the right Path.
A Wind has found its route to go.

"They do not realize that their mental disturbances of worry, egotism, and so on, and their spiritual blindness to the divine meaning of life are the real causes of all human misery.
When a man has destroyed mental bacteria of intolerance, rage, and fear, and has freed his soul from ignorance, he is unlikely to suffer from physical disease or mental lack"

Paramahansa Yogananda

Synchronicity has become part of my life.
It is not confirmation bias.
I do not look for weak proofs.

One language,
Cyber Tower of Babel, reaching a god of technology.
Convenience creates great inconvenience.
Empty faces with no true ID are covered by many layers of masks.
False intimacy on sad Merry go Round.
Being afraid of deep real human connection,
They perform their own phantom of operas on 2D world.
A huge glazed plastic turkey looks so good in 2D.
The followers drool and go frantic to Like!!!

Who am I?
And who are they?
What is going on?

And One day.
When internet shuts down,
Apocalypse for those, the End of their world.
And from there
Humans go through catastrophe of purification.
Some seek for True Wireless Connection.

My hypothesis.

I am a little warrior who have healed self almost completely
My wings became stronger and my vision got clearer
I can fly across the Eternity and Infinity
I live on integrity, dignity, and truth
Each painful step only gets me a clearer confirmation of my true Identity
And I celebrate each and every single step of my pilgrimage
with both tears and glee
I have surrendered to the Wheel of karma and obeyed the Divine Law
- on my own ways -that has been existing from the beginning
No other choice
On my last breath on this Earth and this life time
I will smile
The Gateway will be joyful
I love myself unconditionally
I exist everywhere and nowhere
I am another universe aligned with Universe
This is who I am
And I know why I am here
I do not follow anything but Truth

Either kill me or show me the way
I screamed
And the passages opened

Solar Flares

Facing to the East
The Sun is always there
I just do not see when it rains
I travel between 2 different dimensions
I am nowhere and everywhere
Being here as a Being is the greatest mystery and a puzzle
Is it about Compassion that I need to achieve?


Whoever digs a pit will fall into it,
and a stone will come back on him who starts it rolling.
Proverbs 26:27
Bible and Karma

True strength is about showing my weakness without fear
I became strong enough to show my weakness
Unresolved trauma becomes Karma
Love and embrace your insecurity
Then your Ego will weaken
Be free




My Rooftop

Aurora Borealis

As above, so below
As within, so without
As the Universe, so the soul
(Like Yin and Yang)
Hermes Trismegistus

If you want to find the secrets of the Universe,
Think in terms of energy, frequency and vibration.
Nicola Tesla

Hae Jung is a happy Hermit
Eternity is her world
Roaming between spaces
Mind becomes free
Infinity is her Soul
Time doesn't exist

I am grateful for my Path
From a Seeker to a Warrior
And to a Master of my own life
I also thank myself for not giving up

Selfishness is a serious illness
It is a monstrous disease
Your Ego is the worst and the darkest demon
That you have been feeding for your own destruction
How come it is so difficult to understand?
You shackled and chained yourself
You are the one who broke your wings
And you call yourself  'Free Spirit'?
Your wings of illusion and delusion fly you
To Confusion and bottomless Misery

So many different band-aids for so long
Knowing that they don't work
But how relieving and comforting that you have another different band aid this time

The bitterness coated with thin layer of sugar
You taste very soon

Humans are getting blind
They cannot see something obvious
They do not see the Eyes with their eyes
What kind of planet am I in?
Luckily and fortunately
I am leaving here one day for sure
Soul escaped Land I do not belong
They deceive and being deceived
Both parties are blind with eyes open

Keep the Ego and suffer
Surrender and be free
That is your choice


Desert is deeper than ocean in a sense of connection to who we are
Ocean soothes and pampers with layers of secrets and mysteries
You can hide and disguise yourself
In Desert
The Sun seems stronger
The stars seem brighter
The pain we have we feel more
The relief is bigger
You will need to have strength to see yourself
The Desert never gets thirsty
You cannot deceive yourself in Desert

I am the Desert

When you help others for your own glory
When you help out of  such a pure and strong desire on a soul level
These 2 are like Jekyll and Hyde

Lakota Prayer
Teach me how to trust my heart, my mind, my intuition, my inner knowing,
The senses of my body, the blessings of my spirit.
Teach me to trust these things so that I may enter my sacred space
And love beyond my fear.
And thus walk in balance with the passing of each glorious Sun.

Debauchery, being lack of principle, discipline is not Free Spirit at all.
These are the forms of self abandonment and soul starvation

The more your Ego hurts
The freer you become
The process is good pain

When you get tired of your own hide and seek games and yourself
When you realize that your supply of places to hide runs out
And nothing to seek any more to fill up your pseudo self
When you realize that your Ego gets severe wear and tear
And cannot be used any more as a weapon that has no true power
Your whole world around you is collapsing on you
Feeling like burnt ashes
And there happens involuntary surrender
You will feel lost but if not all is lost in you
You see the beam of light that has been with you from the beginning
And you see you have been being deceived by yourself

Strangely enough
You will notice that your fear has left you
And you will feel Free for the first time in your life here
Who knew your curse was actually a Blessing?

You are picking up beautiful Sarira in the ashes
Rebirth begins
Those who claim to be spiritual by going high
And channel wrong sources
It is not safe
At All

Compassion is not weak emotions
It contains wisdom, strength, clear awareness, and actual force to move things

There were times that I purposely gained weight.
In the thicker layer I felt safer.
I hibernate as a preparation.
I voluntarily chose to be buried in the mud.
Until the right time comes to reveal the glow.
All the strings need tuning and alignment.